Well I don't know if I'm okay or not... Was talking to my love earlier today and I just realised that I'm pretty weird - In a way.

Since young, I've always liked the idea of torturing animals and find great pleasure in seeing them in such a state. The feeling is hard to describe. You are on top of the world when you torture, see them in pain make me grin in delight.

As sick as that might sound, but that's also the fact. Many things I've experienced so far, with more wild imaginations at hand and I must say sometimes I disturb people by my shocking revelation.
Some too outrageous, I decline to tell ANYONE what I've had in my mind.

Nowadays its just the pleasure to torturing animals, specifically insects.
I would not harm cats, dogs, or any form of pets myself as I find it too gruesome to handle.
Never a human being, of course.

Strangely, I am easily disturbed with pictures of others abusing vulnerable puppies/kittens but never angered. Seeing the people beating dogs to death for their fur wasn't particularly a favorite scene.

When I see an insect, I squirm. I hate insects and whenever I see an insect, I'll do harm to it.
Be it burning the insect alive, leaving it for a few seconds completely crawling or pulling one by one of its legs while it is still alive. I don't kill anything beautiful, though. I will less likely pull the wings of a pretty butterfly but wouldn't say no to doing the same thing to a dull moth.
I would dissect an ant's or any insect's abdomen away from its body, leaving it to run recklessly in pain - I hope.

Then there is the live animal cooking. I'm easily excited if I see a fish being fried on its body (but with it's existing breathing head) and amused by it's life torture. Or if I see a fish being sliced alive while I eat it's flesh, that would most likely be the food/restaurant I would say it's my favorite.

I'll never abuse cats, dogs, and pets. If I find the subject too much of a beauty and cuteness, I will never abuse such things. Only ugly looking insects.

I'll just have to make sure these insects don't come haunting me on my graveyard - which I think they most probably will

Bang Bang!!

Hey my darling readers,

During my previous weekend, did some really fun stuff and guess where I went?
Shooting! That's right! Me and friends; Stefan, Tom and a few others when shooting at the National Gun Club. Was located really far away in deep forests of Lim Chu Kang area and it was grounds for shooting!

I was told later that I was going to start shooting with a shotgun. Sounds easy? Just pull the trigger and that's it? WRONG. For a start, we had a briefing with our gun instructors what to do with the guns etc. It was pretty engaging and informative like how dangerous the shotguns were. FYI, anyone can come and have gun lessons, but starting price is at $65 per head for a 1 hour session. Not cheap..

Gotta know from some of my fellow girlfriends there, that the members of the gun club are usually VVIP people. I looked around the area, yeah there were a few ordinary looking people running around, then my friend whispered "They're all multi-millionaires".

Ok, that explains all that luxury cars outside the parking lot! - smacks head.

And overall.......... I SHOT 5 BUNNIES!! (well not real one but replicas that you just throw in the air and try to shoot it). I kinda sucked, pfft.

Still need help

Me and Stefan


The Gang

Still get to shoot 5 bunnies though! :)

Black or white?

Will u look at what we were?

Whether wrong or right No one can tell Whatever it takes

The reason to believe you I won't let go Holding onto innocent meaning

Sunset boulevard Don't fade away Let's take a walk in the dark Sunset boulevard

Let's make belief All the water was written in your heart

In Trance, We Trust!

I've recently feel the need to express myself more so I guess blogger will be my best alternative!

I've always been a fan of House, Electro House, Trance and Lounge Music. There's just so much energy in them and I'd rather be plugging in that early in the morning compared to listening to stale Chris Brown or Lady Gaga. So commercialized and even if I'm at a party, it's house music baby... Although, I will admit a little bit of Gaga is fine.. lol.

Ok so here we go. Introducing the amazing Armin Van Buuren & Paul Oakenfold.

Currently 2 of my Fav tracks. I just kinda like Vocal Trance.. Far more exciting!

I just feel amazingly out of this world and literally having Eargasm.. hahaha.

Cheers to Trance, House and Party Music!

Enjoy!

Dezarate & Michael Manzano - Soul Is In The Air

Lange Ft. Emma Hewitt - Live Forever

Hello lovelies!

I am back!!! Been MIA pretty much because I am UBER BUSY!! Work, work.. Projects, projects....

Clients, clients... Didn't even have enough time to watch Gossip Girl for heaven's sake..

Recently however, I just got my time back and managed to watch all my GG series because I kinda broke up.. With 2 of my lovers. Yeah, kinda bad... My life is kind of scandalous (*lol) but i figured it would be too narcisstic of me to describe every single inch of my life.. hahah plus, not sure if you guys can digest it well! :P

So now, I AM SINGLE!!! Well actually I've always been, albeit a little preoccupied.....

No man drama (but I think it was more of my drama :X )

But least I'm free to go fishing again without worrying there's too much fish in the basket..!

ANYWAY, back to blogging....... Recently I've been browsing through Facebook etc and I'm shocked to see sometimes, really young parents! I know I have friends too getting pregers etc, but as long as they're happy it's fine. But what made me shocked are actually NOT my friends but just couple of people I've seen in Facebook (jeez, thank you public profiles!).......

16 mother to be and 18 year old dad! Typical but not my cup of tea......... I mean I have no issues with sex, but c'mon don't you at least wear protection, or pull out?? 0.o

And I might sound naggy too but seriously, here I am working my ass off meeting clients

(and they're not always fun!) with tonnes of responsiblities and STRESS..

I can hardly give myself 100% financially (ok maybe I'm too much of a spendthrift -.-)

- what more a kid! Unless of course my baby daddy is some anak datuk with millions to spare (which is highly unlikely, haha)

But anyway, I've seen many too living happily with their partners for a long time, successfully bringing their kids up and I really respect that. As long as you're happy..

Just not my choice of lifestyle though. I wanna go to University.. Party my tits off.. Travel my ass off... Date sooo many princes and then making a huge MCQ quiz to choose my #1 <----- JK!!

k see. I am so not fit to get married/have kids/commit.

lol

k bye

xoxo

Religion is just a form of control created by mankind before civilisation.

Or so I thought, "God" was fair. Then why the need of different religions?

Meaning to say we'll ALL go to "hell" just because we're born into a different religion?

Spare me.

Seriously, leave the preaching for your own.

- confused/angry/annoyed/can't be bothered.

Internet Lover VS Real Life Lover

I know you might think this is odd, but in this 21st century nothing is impossible.

I met a guy exactly the same as my internet soulmate.

His looks, his character, his ability to make music beautiful.......

Exactly the same as my greecian internet lover.

I know this might sound naiive as to why can fall for a guy over the net, someone who lives thousands of miles away and someone I have never met in life before. We met through the internet 3 years ago and still have so much love for him.

We dream of each other, make sweet promises, see each other online and can't help but to blush everytime I see him. Least I know the feeling's mutual. I've even arranged plans to audition twice for Singapore Airlines to be an air stewardess, however I couldn't get through. I have no other choice but to save up money to visit him in Greece and I still am saving for it.

I'm pretty sure I wil go there one day and I've made a promise to myself for that. We've made a promise too that even though we might be married when we meet or with someone, we'll go for each other no matter what because the feeling is just too strong.

I love him so much and the feeling will never ever change, just as it has always been for the last 3 years. I've made a promise that I will definitely visit him and go to Greece. I will go to Greece.

Now, like I said, I met a guy EXACTLY like my internet lover. His looks were somewhat similar and how he serenaded me with his guitar like my internet lover was just so similar.

Maybe we're just meant to be.

So confusing when you have a string of affairs.....

I just don't know which one to choose!

Can't I just keep them all?

:-/

Evil on Earth

As usual I went about googling random stuff (it started with reading up about World's most evil women).

I have read about Hungary's Countess Elizabeth Bathory who killed almost all of her female servants by torturing them to death and yes, bathed in their blood to regain her beauty.

And even Vlad III "The Impaler" from Romania who killed thousands of his own people by impaling them (even pregnant women!). Then of course these incidents happened during the Dark Ages, amidst the popularity of owning a slave; who, most often, are regarded lower than animals.

However, one story caught my attention as to how cruel people can get, especially when accompanied with a privellaged status.

The story is set in 1800s; New Orleans, United States of America.

There once lived a rich aristocrat by the name of Delphine LaLaurie. Twice widowed, this demure-looking lady had a talent of hiding what lied beneath, a horrible and twisted monster filled with insanity.

When a fire broke out in LaLaurie's Spanish-inspired mansion, all hell broke loose.

What lied uncovered for many years in the mansion's attic was the results of the beast that lied beneath the beautiful, porcelained skin and soft spoken lady.

Delphine LaLaurie had tortured her slaves in the most brutal form one can ever imagine.

What filled the dark attic was disfigured slaves, abused in the most horrific techniques - some were even clinging on to dear life despite it looking so bleak and dark.

I cannot imagine how it will be like if I were one of the fire fighters witnessing the scene of tortured human, what more be one of the slaves subjected to such inhumane acts!

Imagine this; sewn lips in which inside the mouth lies animal secretions (faeces etc). Eyeballs pulled out to leave hanging and head drilled to insert a metal rod which acted like a "stirrer" to stir their very own brain - all while still very much alive.

Arms and limbs forcefully detached, thereafter sewn back to resemble a "Human Crab" and even without limbs and skin grafted to look like a caterpillar.

SOME OF THE SLAVES DISCOVERED BY THE FIRE FIGHTERS WERE VERY MUCH ALIVE, BEGGED TO BE KILLED.

Nonetheless, the cold blooded devil managed to escape the authorities, even angry neighbours and protestors who waited outside her house and had planned to publicly hang her for her devious acts.

However, life is cruel. She sprang for her life one day after running into her carriage with her family - never to be seen again. Some said she fled to France, others said she lived in the outskirts of Louisiana.

There were rumors that she died during a hunt, supposedly by a wild boar. I only hope she died alone with no one around, her body strewn all over the ground by the angry beast that was once very much dominant in her. Some said she died of natural causes with her family by her side.

The reality is, everyone dies. Whether we are going to heaven or hell, one will never know until it happens. What we can do now is to imagine it based on our faiths.

The reality is, there are monstrous beasts out there whether you like it or not. It is nurture that brought along evil.

I was watching The Lovely Bones the other day and I was mesmerised by the digital effects, the story and the divine, magical aspects of the whole story. One cannot help but to cry at the sight of distraught families and torn souls. One cannot help but to fill themselves up with so much hatred at the evil man who murdered the innocent and once bright little girl.

Yet we all have to think, what if we come across a person so evil and heartless that pure hatred fills our souls? Why is it that the very thought of picturing the person dicapitated, in the most horrific state, brings about a rather peculiar satisfaction that we most often usually deny? Does that make us evil, in a way?

Read the history: Delphine LaLaurie and her full account of horrific murder