I still miss JJ so so much.... Sad to say.

Missed F1 = Fuck!

Ok, I'm upset.

I missed the exhilirating Formula 1 race at Sao Paolo!!! =(
I just stayed up late hearing to my friends' comments over fucking chat =(

I wanted to see the action! The adrenaline!!
How Alonso crashed and Barrichello punctured his tyres...
And how Button won the World Championship!!!
Even though he was way behind!!!! =@


I'm getting that mio box thingy, period.

HUMAN??!

Fuck off...................................
I just watched Dara... Indonesian gore movie.....
So gory, was about a demented family practicing cannabilism as a sort of ritual for their immortality.

It's a good show though... Albeit a little too bloody.
I'd say a nice try at copying the typical American gore movies.... Minus the sex of course.

As such, I was so disturbed by the whole movie and I decided to google...

"Taste of Human Flesh"

and.............. FUCK OFF

http://www.churchofeuthanasia.org/e-sermons/butcher.html

I came across this website describing in perfect detail of how to prepare a human feast -literally.



" Skinning: After removing the head, wash the rest of the body down. Because there is no major market for human hides, particular care in removing the skin in a single piece is not necessary, and makes the task much easier."









WHAT THE FUCK.
Click on that STUPID link.

I'm still bewildered as to how FUCKING SICK some "people" can be........................

I will survive!

Probably foolish of me to think I'm very lonely.

I've got tonnes of girlfriends and friends.

I will survive!

Hence the change of the music on my blog....

Before: Break Up Redemption

Now: Romance Redemption.

Oh well I love the songs anyway.......

Fly me to the moon by Julie London and So Nice by all-time fav, Diana Krall.

Have a great weekend lovelies!

Extra To-do list

There's lots of things I have to do.......

LOSE WEIGHT.
I will have to really watch what I'm eating, exercise every morning before I go to work.
I know I look slim, but I CAN be healthier.

Clean my room...... I know this is embarrasing but I have a problem.....
I keep planning of what to do but when it comes to doing it, I can never learn to prioritise....
(this is really worrying me...I have such bad self-discipline.. I tend to give too much face to myself... What about work? Business in the near future?!)

Find myself a new boyfriend? (lol)
* Been staying single too long (before JJ of course) and now dying to spread the remaining love

And among all others



xoxoxox

Lonesome Fool

" There are times you may be surrounded by people, but you know deep in you're walking through the pathway on your own......"

I have been feeling rather lonely these days.

I know I have friends I can talk to....... but I guess sometimes not everyone is free.......

Been wanting to talk to someone over coffee, drinks, whatever...

But they're busy, overseas, busy or spending time with their lovers....

So, I just end up going home feeling rather disappointed... or just shopping on my own..

Have no idea how many times I have been stranded on my own....

It's when you're somewhere on your own and you know company is on their way soon..

You decide to go on your own first...

Thinking you will make some friends along the way, like you always do

You make friends, yes, but then they will start to leave to go back... or join their friends..

You're just there alone!

and what's worst is when the friend totally stand you up.

(I can understand and I apologise the ones with valid reason..)

At a place that holds too many memories......................

It's just too painful but you have to grit your teeth and be strong.

Alas, didn't take me long to go back anyway....

I hope I'm not losing my charisma and personality!!!!!!

I remembered having such great times with others even when at times I'm all alone!

Whats happening to me??? =( I think I've lost my mojo................

=( =( =(

Been feeling so glum... Like, all the time..........

Always thinking about the same damn thing....

I hate this feeling =(

I want the old suffi =( =( =( =(

I miss JJ...... alot .....

Accuracy? : 98.5%

Aquarius Strength Keywords:

- Witty

- Clever

- Humanitarian

- Inventive

- Original

Aquarius Weakness Keywords:

- Stubborn

- Unemotional

- Sarcastic

- Rebellious

- Aloof

Aquarius and Independence:

Aquarius personality is very independent, any attempt to hold them down or restrict them will cause them, to flee. They need to be free to be on their own. Independence is not just desired by Aquarius, it is essential to their well being.

Aquarius and Friendship:

Beneath the detached, unemotional exterior lies a kind hearted friend that will go out of their way to help another. They love to make people laugh and cheer people up and it makes them feel good to make others feel good. They do not expect anything in return for this could put a damper on their freedom, they live with no strings attached. They are very unconventional and always full of excitement, an Aquarius friend always makes life fun. They might offer you a spontaneous last minute camping trip with no supplies prepared, if you decide to go along, you will have a weekend to remember forever!

Aquarius and Business:

Aquarius likes to do something useful with their lives, mixing that with their amazing way with people, they make excellent politicians and social workers/psychologists. They are progressive thinkers and are great at forming new ideologies and theories, any type of research is very suited to Aquarius.

Aquarius one downfall in the business world is the attention to detail, they like the grand ideas and massive plans and can make them happen, but the mundane day to day repetitive details causes them to procrastinate. Aquarius needs a secretary.

Aquarius and Temperament:

Aquarius tend to be rebels just for the sake of having their own way. Their stubbornness sometimes causes their failure, they will continue to do something their way even though others have proved it is wrong, they are very smart people and know it is wrong but they will continue just because it is their way, they are very fixed in opinion and stubborn when confronted. Despite their stubbornness and fixed opinion, they will never impose their ideas on others, they have respect for everybody's differences.

Aquarius Deep Inside:

Aquarius are in search of wisdom, they are very observant and they can gather their information objectively because emotions do not get in the way, they seem to be above emotions altogether and when they speak, they speak the truth. Sometimes it may be shocking or painful because of their disregard for the feelings of others, but they intend no harm, they call it like they see it and do not let emotions cloud their judgment, they are very detached from emotion. It is not that Aquarius are unemotional, they just to not trust their emotions so they incorporate them into their ideas of who they are. As a result, if someone does not agree with their ideas, Aquarius sometimes takes it personally, not as much as other zodiac signs however as Aquarius is intellect driven and not emotionally driven. Sometimes they wonder if there is something in life that they are missing because they do not feel like other people feel. This does not necessarily prevent them from being involved in intimate relationships, they are capable of this but the person on the other end will always notice an air of detachment from Aquarius. Aquarius wonders 'why?' so much that they can question their existence. They wonder if what they are doing is useful, they want other people to notice them and appreciate them, this is caused by underlying insecurities that wonder if other people accept them for who they are but these are never brought to the surface because to an Aquarius, it does not matter that much because they know that they are special.

Aquarius in a Nutshell:

Aquarius is the sign of visionaries, unconventionality and intellectual independence. Aquarius are the people who deviate from the crowd and go their own way. They are always after intellectual stimulation, constantly discovering something new, forming new opinions and stubbornly traveling their way regardless of what other people think. Aquarius are filled with paradoxes, they are interested in the opposite ends of the spectrum, they like to be alone yet are social butterflies, they like to experience both sides and see both opinions as they formulate new ideas with their forward thinking, active mind. Aquarius have a 'live and let live' policy where everyone is free to be themselves, an Aquarius never judges others because as human beings, we are all equal and entitled to our own opinions. They are verbally skilled and very witty, they observe people and learn how to interact with others through observation. They can be masters of manipulation justifying anything they do or think. As a result, they can deal with any type of personality and adapt to any situation. They welcome change because boredom is their enemy. Anything new is an opportunity to Aquarius. Aquarius can act as an expert on any topic, they are very good at inflating their own importance, they feel it is deserved because their eccentricity makes them unique. Conventional people beware, Aquarius likes to shock and deviate from the norm, this is how they live. Aquarius is known to pick at anyone they find weak or dull-minded. It is simply an easy target for verbal exercise for them, no harm is meant but it might be taken from the other person. Deep inside, Aquarius would never intentionally hurt anyone, they have respect for every human, even though this might not seem apparent to the more emotional types.

*I just find that this is very....... me.....

xoxox

Feeling #1:

I have disappointed and faced disappointment.

It's the worst feeling of all, besides betrayal.

You put up so much hope on something/someone, yet they simply let you down.

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Feeling #2:

I'm pretty stressed with situations. Money is being a bitch all the time.
I need time to learn to prioritise my money and time.
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Feeling #3:

Why the hell do some people think they have no chance of being on top of the food chain and "insist" on being at the bottom because " There's no hope?"!

I can't stand it when higher ranked people put you down at such a low level.
That has always been a motivation for me to move further up to the skies.
The fire is burning in me and I will do all I can to show to myself and them that I can be at the same or even higher position then them.

There's nothing sweeter then bumping into your old screaming boss/snobbish people you've met and showing them your power and higher authority that you possess.


And to all those who think they are only " fated " to be rock bottom, one piece of advise:
You can, if you believe.

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Feeling #4:

Still searching for the missing shattered pieces.
Some of which might have been swept away, lost forever.
I guess there's always Scotch Tape.
Only thing is, it leaves residues.
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xxxxxx

UPDATE! F1 ~~~~~~~~

Jenson Button! ;)

Hamilton/Barichelo : Mclarren

Formula 1 at Singapore was fantastic!

I had a super superb view that was waaay better than the $1000 Grand Stand Tickets!

Imagine:

The sound of robust engines vrooming by, piercing your eardrums, within metres.

The enclosed section and luxury of of everything at one place...

Plus, no other ticket holders allowed within the Flyer Premises (I think).

So.... NO LONG QUEUES!

No complaining of heat and long queue up lines for drinks...

AND..... Restaurants! Right beside you!

Have got to say they were the best places to view the race, especially since there was a curb round the corner and thus drivers don't just speed by and we can't see them at all....

Take a look!

I got Button and Hamilton!

Although as you can see, I missed Ferrari =(

and yes.... Ferrari was rather disappointing, I must say.

Got the lovely tickets for free... hehe

I've checked through the prices and the actual price was actually $800 for the tickets I was holding on too............

Was reading the news too and some were complaining about not receiving any goody bags even though they were seated at the Grand Stand...

Dear god, I had 2 Goody Bags!!!!!

Each with 2 Red Bull, F1 fans (which they complained they didn't receive either) Vouchers, even an F1 golf cap!! and of course, ear plugs which still had a S$3 price tag on (that I got for free).

:P

Overall was great!! There wasn't even any queue at all for the drinks, a HUGE POPEYE RESTAURANT... and huge TV everywhere and NOT SO CROWDED!

There was even swimming pools!!!!

Wanted to take a dip though, hahah but oh well...

2010, Formula 1,

I shall see you again.

xoxox