Haywired

I do not understand why I'm this emotional these days.
I remembered being so angry I broke pots, smashed phones against the wall...

Banged my hand on the gates, to the extent the neighbours even peeked out to look at me - just because I forgot my keys and I was locked out of the house.

Then again, that was a week before my period was due.

I assumed this was just a typical case of me having the all dreaded PMS, although I'm very rarely in a spiteful mood.

Even before that emotional week, I had put on a sour face to JJ for some time....
For many various emotions I was feeling at that moment, I suppose.
JJ even commented that he had never seen me in such bad state.

A week had passed since my last period and guess what?
I still have these emotions! Very strong emotional roller coaster I'm feeling all the time.

I flare even when JJ replies late to my sms...
I don't show it... but that feeling is burning immensely and I'm trying so hard to control it.

I flare at everything petty - slow computers, pimples, dark eyes, hair, ugly knees and especially, my psoriasis.

At times I feel so upset I break down, for no apparent reasons....

I was never this stressed before...
Now it's all coming back to me....

I guess I know some of the reasons why...