A rock off my chest

Maybe it's an Aquarius thing, to feel so detached with people whom you're so close with.

It's funny. I can never dream of such loving relationships filled with rosy "I love you"s or "I love you soo sooo much"s.

It's sad.... Then again, throughout my half year relationship with JJ, never had I announced the words "I love you" to him... But the love I had for him, no words can describe.

I'm starting to fall for Jimmy. But this is what happens when the person you love/like is always away overseas for work etc. I understand everything thats happening and the responsibilities he has to put up for. This is work and this is life. I guess its more of a long distance thing and I did that with JJ too.... It can be challenging, trust me. Mom, I know how you feel too.

But what else can I do? I can't complain..... What I can do is distract myself by keeping myself busy with work and friends and etc. I'm just not the type who would cringe at the thought of the person I love be away for a month or so. Perhaps SMSses thrice or even none throughout the week. I can't say I enjoy it... Maybe to prepare myself for the more tumultuous future, perhaps?

Currently, there are more than long distance things that's bothering my mind... Far more bigger issues, that I hope isn't true at all..... Work.....Finance.... Studies.... Ambiguousness.....

Ok it's late, I have to turn in now. Good night.

P.S. Reading older posts really makes me laugh so hard. But I will not delete any one of them unless necessary. After all, they're like the bits of old photos you still keep when you were still in diapers etc- memories.