It happened again.
I just feel miserable, yet contempt & confused.
Have you ever tried to look down from tall buildings wondering how it's like if you fell?

I have.

I'm not saying i'm getting all suicidal here for something I don't even know is happening.
But I just wonder how its like to fall, spreading your arms and feel yourself being freed in the air.

But there's the consequence - Kabloom!
You're dead. Smashed like a watermelon. And you see your body there.

This is scary, I've seen death so many times in my dreams. I am horrified.
Once I dreamt I was in an accident and then I saw my friend and the taxi driver dead.
I saw they're souls being extracted by an unknown force from their bodies.
And I was there, looking. Feeling half alive/dead, I dunno was kind of hard to describe.

Then, a group of black figures (ok imagine those Harry Potter black ghosts you saw at the Prisoner of Azkaban) coming near me... Then they pause. One looked to me and said, "Your soul is not accepted," .................

OMG. That happened like freaking years ago but i remembered clearly how it was.
Thank god it was a dream....................................


I dunno, my feeling are just like all over the place.

One moment I'm jumping about all jubilant.
Then the next time I'm reading the news and I get all fed up and feel like crying.
I need to do something here..........

:(